Hes in love with ME and no one else and that’s all that really matters.
I truly believe that’s all that I need in this world. If I could just have that for the rest of my life, I think I would be alright. It’s a blanket that keeps me safe and happy in my own skin.
It’s days like this… sitting in the passenger seat with my knees drawn to my chest and an arm waving out the window like a dolphin in and out of water. The heat and sun all over my body and Band of Horses blaring. God, the warmth is amazzzzzzzing. I didn’t care about anything else in the world but that single moment. It’s hard for me to honestly say that I am “enjoying this very moment without a single care” But I was… for those few minutes. I love my life. Today anyway.
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I think puppies are great. They are adorable and fluffy..and just great BUT I just could never have one. The are so stressful. I want to travel all around the world and quite frankly, it’s tough to do that with a dog!! It just wouldn’t be fair. Even if it’s a day trip to chicago you have to arrange for someone to come let the dog out. I mean I’m sure it’s worth it but still, no.
I suppose I could say the same about a baby! Babies are SO much responsibility and just one more thing you have to worry about on a trip or… even a small trip, to the grocery store. Goodness. But lets be honest, who actually PLANS to have a baby these days? ha
Maybe I’m selfish. Maybe I’m just a 21 year old that doesn’t want to be responsible for anything but herself. Maybe that’s what makes me selfish but I suppose I could say that I know MANY selfish 21 year olds then. It’s life. I’ll do what I want. :)
I really don’t think anyone gets it. I know he’s just a bird but he’s MY bird. It’s a possession that I have had since I was FOUR years old. I love old things that remind me of my childhood. WELL Jasmine is one of those things! And she’s going to be buried in a shoebox in my backyard in the next few hours. :( Yeah. I’m really sad about it. I love him just as much as I love my dog. She used to whistle the tune of our phone… before she had her stroke. She would say “Hello” and “Jimmy” and “Pretty Bird”. She would sit on my shoulder for long periods of time and nibble at my earrings or shirt collar, or necklace. She would kiss me on the lips! She would sit on my head. She would dance back and fourth if you had a cracker in your hand. So anyway- we had a good run. :) I’m glad she’s not suffering anymore. Also- funny story. I keep calling her a she… she’s actually a HE. When I was little I named her jasmine.. then we found out its a he. Now I usually go back and fourth calling her a him and a she.. oh well. hahaha I will miss you.
I’m feeling a little down right now. I hope it passes. I’d really just like to sleep. I feel like I have responsibility over so many people but I shouldn’t. I am my own person and everyone is responsible for themselves. I don’t have children so I’m not responsible for any kids either. I’m just irritated.
I just want to say that I watched Greys Anatomy tonight and it took my breath away. Seriously, there were parts during the episode where I held my breath because I was so scared. I’ve only seen maybe five episodes of greys. TOTAL. This season finale struck me. Way to go, Jessie.
WEEELLLLL.. I hung out with the Amish folks today. They’re so nice, at least the ones I encountered. We walked around shipshewana. Out of EVERYTHING that they have there to buy, I bought a giant pickle and I enjoyed every bite of it. Went to Reece’s game last night. He pitched for a bit. They won. I love little league and I miss being out there. It used to be my second home. I know walking tacos are bad for me, I know but I like to get them anyway. It’s super warm out today. I fell asleep in my backyard. I hope one side of my face isn’t burnt. We’ll see. Tonight I’m planning on taking some night shots downtown. Wish me luck.
Today a woman pointed out a guy to me and said “He is so obviously queer, I hope he knows that he is going straight to hell”. Oh goodness. Alarms just started going off in my head. I could feel my face get hot with frustration. Okay people. We are all human. Homosexuality isn’t a flaw, it’s a sexual orientation. Okay. I’m a girl, I like guys. No one cares. He’s a guy, he likes guys. Everyone cares all of a sudden?! You might think it’s disgusting but it doesn’t make it “wrong”. You might think peas are disgusting but it doesn’t make eating peas “wrong”. I don’t know why people are so judgmental. Can’t we just let people live? Why can’t we help people grow and flourish? Don’t we want people to be happy and live to their best abilities? WAIT A SECOND. No, I’m not into God as much as I should be, but I believe that judging someone will put you in hell as well… am I right? I think that’s what it says in the bible. Who knows? The point is… I hope that there will come a day where we can accept people as living and loving people.. just how they are. Be comfortable in your skin.
I never feel pretty. Okay, that’s not true, sometimes I feel pretty. BUT the majority of the time, I really don’t. I need to get ahold of myself. I know I have a pretty personality. (Not to be all full of myself) I mean, I’m nice to everyone unless they hurt me in some way, and even THEN I’m too nice to people. I care about people, I really want to know what they are thinking, or feeling. I am usually a very happy person. I compliment people when I am thinking something good about them. I don’t know, I put people before anything else. Ya know? I don’t try to be better than anyone else. I try not to lie to people. I just think I’m a good person. I just wish I felt prettier. I am going to work on it. Repeating only positive things to myself. I’m never going to put myself down. It’ll be a hard habit to break but it’s necessary. We’re all human. Everyone is beautiful, or can be beautiful.
I feel like I already did this. I said Anything by Jodi Picoult. But I’ll find something else… How about The Time Travelers Wife? ORRR OR The Secret Life of Bees which I have YET to read… but the movie was amazing. I have heard that the book is even better so I am definitely picking it up this summer. For sure.